Being a Free Spirit

A couple of months ago I walked into one of my favourite local shops, Ambrosium, it is full of wonderful crystals, books, figurines and more. I was taken by a particular book, while looking for another book on Faeries (Fairies). The one I was drawn to is called Bridges, Ancient Wisdom Revealed (Esoteric Philosophy for the Seekers of Today). I brought the book home excited to read it, though left it on my desk for a couple of months longer, until yesterday I just picked it up, put it in my bag and went to my favourite coffee shop to start reading.

It was interesting to remember the day I bought the book, and yesterday when I started reading it. I have been very tired with work, home and not sleeping particularly well, with every night this week dreaming. When I dream, especially this week I have remembered ever dream that I have had and with a lot of detail. I am a strong believer that when dreams are extremely vivid, and when remembered on waking have messages from the universe.

Bridges, has got me thinking and already questioning so much about life. I hear regularly people saying, "you only live once!" do we really? could there be some truth to reincarnation? or are we not ready to comprehend the idea of life after death? For me I believe we can have contact through the 'spiritual' world with deceased loved ones, whether with help from a 'medium', meditation, dreams and other ways. I guess what I am trying to say without getting to deep with this is, are we living our lives with curiosity or are we just going day by day through the motions?

Over this past week I have become more and more aware of just how much time I have wasted due to my illness (eating disorder) and my obsessions with sports and wanting to be so good at things and pushing myself to hard physically and mentally in the wrong direction. I have had some amazingly wonderful memories flood my mind this week from when I was a child, playing out doors and really enjoying the simplest of things in my life then. From playing 'mud pies' with my pets and 'invisible friends' (I would have been between 5-8 years old). Riding my BMX bike around the back yard, finding wonder in the butterflies that played in the garden, the goanna that would hide in the garden and my golden retriever barking at it but never brave enough to go any closer. Being 'free spirited' I guess. Then as I got older things in life changed, you have more chores to do around the house, you have homework to do, you have expectations to meet, and the list goes on. As we get older we forget what makes us truly happy, or what makes us smile, and I mean smile from our hearts.

This week I have come to see that I can make the changes that are necessary for me to truly enjoy my life, be curious about life, about the universe, about so much around us. I understand my 'purpose' in this life and every day I am taking steps to fill my life with my purpose and to share that with others around me.

If you could take yourself back to a time in your childhood that you felt like a 'free spirit', truly and genuinely happy, would you like to be able to feel that everyday as an adult? I have decided to find something everyday that brings a smile from my heart, and something that makes me curious about life, and my life that I am surrounded by.

Dream...Goal...Journey...

Is it enough to just have a dream? or do we need more than just the dream?
I have a dream to write a novel,  I have been writing as often as I can, I have been reading as much as I can. Is that enough? I didn't have a deadline until recently to have my first draft done by, now that I have put a deadline in place I feel this now has helped me to search harder for more time for research and writing.

I am attending a writers convention in September and have set myself the deadline for one or two completed manuscripts to pitch next year to publishers. So now the dream is a goal with a plan and now with deadlines to meet. Does this make the dream more real that it now is a goal, or is it still a dream until it comes to fruition?

 I have the dream to have a novel published, I have a plan to write the novel, I have a deadline to have manuscripts ready to submit to publishers, now what? Is the dream needing anything more to make it come alive. I have passion for the subject(s) that I am writing about, I have to make time to research and write, I need to make sure I stay persistent through the journey of writing my novel(s) especially when I feel it all getting to much and having moments of frustration with scenes. Staying dedicated to the dream will not sway, though there is the journey that is still very important. Its good to see in our mind the end product, but its the lessons we learn on the way, which can be so much more important. We learn more about ourselves, people around us, and the best ways to get something done and accomplished with the help from other like minded people. I believe being among other writers and publishers at conventions and a like events is extremely beneficial to making my dream a reality.

Have an awesome week, dream, write your dream into goals and put them all into action, and most of all enjoy the journey.

DoryBlu