That sudden moment...

 Today I had a sudden moment where I was sitting in my local cafe reading, "Big Magic" by Elizabeth Gilbert. I had this almost flashback to being about fifteen at school and having to make decisions on what I wanted to do when I grew up.

Here I was at fifteen trying to think like an adult, when I was still a teen. I had no life experience other than school. How was I supposed to know what I wanted to be when I was older?

I can now tell my fifteen year old self, what I should have done and decided on. Though would I have been where I think I would be, or would the universe still have me where I am now? It would be great to have a crystal ball to see what might have happened, if at fifteen, and knowing what I know now, would things be different or the same? Would my life lessons I was supposed to learn be the same just with different people and different places?

We can always play "what if?"Though I don't think it really gets us anywhere. I can honestly say today, I wish I had known of my true love for reading way back, a love and understanding of writing, but would I have my family that I have now, the great job I love, the amazing lessons I have learnt about myself and others around me? I guess I will never know. But what I do know is this:

I am creative, loving, understanding, different, unique, authentic, intuitive, myself, me. Someone who cares for animals, people around me, my family. a love for reading and learning from reading. I love to write, whether that be my blogs or my first fictional novel.

From today on wards, even though I am older and not fifteen, I can still be me, create my first novel, fill my life with what makes me happy and still learn so much. I can be what I want to be now, I don't have to wait for the future and know what I know now.

 Have an awesome weekend

DoryBlu