Vulnerability

Being vulnerable in my opinion is one of the hardest things to be in life. I have spent so many years of my life protecting myself from being vulnerable, that way I wouldn't get hurt any more than I already was. It was easier to live my life protecting myself with something I wasn't, than to be the real and authentic me. How do we know when we are being authentic? I believe only the individual person can answer that. For me it was allowing myself to feel emotion, not hide from it, and to believe I was worth something. That I was allowed to look at the world with love, creativity, curiosity, and know that I am going to be hurt at times, but I am strong enough to bounce back.

Currently I am reading Brene Brown's book Rising Strong. I wish I could have read this in my teens, and maybe I hope today, that back then I would have found what she was writing was enough to shock me to understand that starving myself wasn't the way to live and to know I was and am worth so much more than trying to kill myself. I can now see that Brene Brown's words can touch so many, that don't see their self worth, for what ever reason and feel that by being someone that they are not to be easier, when in the end we are supposed to be our real selves and if we don't fit into the world around us as easy as others, well you know what that is fine, we are supposed to be different and if people around you don't like that, then they shouldn't be in your life, if you need to be someone else in order to keep them happy.

Being vulnerable in a world that criticizes everything, is hard and very uncomfortable, though it is important to know deep with in your own heart and mind that you need to follow your path in life, not anyone else. We need to be strong enough with in ourselves to know, that if we are different that is more than fine and we are the ones that can make a difference in such a harsh world.

We go through so many struggles in life and they are part of our story (as Brene Brown puts in her book), and we need to face each stage of the struggle, the learning and the resolution. To know that in  the end we lived our stories to the best we could and no matter what we are happy.

Take that giant leap of faith and believe in who you truly are.

DoryBlu