It has been a while since my last post, and a lot has been happening, most of it not good, though dealing with each day as it comes. It has been interesting to look back over the last 10 months and realise so much has gone wrong and how stressful my life has been. I have been very lucky in that I have had my health through it all. Though my mental status has been pushed to breaking point more than once.
I have come to see so many changes in my life, ones that are good and exciting, though some that I have questioned more than once. I have always for as long as I can remember always used exercise to sooth me when I am stressed out. For the first time in my 40+ years I have done the opposite. Running was my favourite go to, and that has been taken away from me, since I had foot surgery back in March. I haven't been on my bike in more than two and half years. and I spent every spare minute in the previous 12 months swimming preparing for a marathon swim. I have spent most of my spare time over the last 6 months writing the first draft to my first novel. I have enjoyed the quiet time more than I thought I would. I have though found it a little, almost scary that I have come to find more happiness in the quiet times of my life than in the noise of sport.
Life puts challenges before us, its up to us to deal with those challenges in the best way we can. Those challenges can also show us the changes we need to make in our own lives to live a more balanced life, and more fullfilled life. I can say my life over the last ten months has changed significantly, from a sports-aholic to an aspiring novelist that enjoys the company of her books, note books, pens and trusty lap top, compared to being out training every day or other day. My new reality even though there are challenges allows me to run away to another world of my imagination a place I never really went to from my early teens till my early 40's. Now my imagination has permission to run as wild as it wishes.
Take care everyone
Hayley xx
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